Mad As HELL!!

I was having a wonderful Mother's Day yesterday, until IT happened!. My sister and I decided that we were going to go to the liquor store to buy some coolers, sit in my backyard, have a barbecue and have some fun. It all sounded good until we got to the liquor store.

There was a young Asian girl behind a make-shift counter offering samples of a new wine called, FAT BASTARD MERLOT..lol..it's true, I swear! I took a sample, chatted with her about the name a bit and as I was walking away an Indian woman walking behind me stood in front of the young girl and BLASTED her about discrimination! Yelling and screaming so loud I thought they were going to call the police. This BIOTCH was freaking out because the "sample girl" didn't stop her and ask her if she wanted one, but she stopped ME. Is she for f****** real?

First of all, she didn't stop me, I stopped myself, and secondly who the hell does she think she is anyway?? If she wanted a sample of wine she should have stopped, like everyone else. Are we supposed to bow down to these people because they are minorities?? Where along the line did she learn that she would be treated like royalty when she set foot on Canadian soil?? When in Rome, lady!!!!

It's not really like me, but I just HAD to confront her and defend this poor young girl, who by now was almost in tears over the whole matter. I pretty much told her that if she didn't like it here, she should feel free to leave, go home and try to make her own country a more livable country and stop F******complaining. Okay, so I SHOUTED it. I hear about this crap happening every day, but it's never happened to me before and I was mad as hell! We exchanged a few choice words while the entire store looked on, and then we left.

As we were leaving, a man waiting in line shouted "I'm Irish, she never offered me" then another shouted, I'm from England, she never offered me" a woman shouted, I'm Hungarian, she never offered me" and even the man at the cash register, an employee, shouted, I'm from Italy, she never offered me"..lol It was pretty funny at this point, and the woman who started the whole mess left her SHOPPING CART FULL OF ALCOHOL, probably to re-sell somewhere, and left also.

I don't have a problem with ANYONE, hell, I'm an immigrant myself. My father brought us here in 1967. He worked HARD to become a Canadian Citizen, and he never asked for special treatment or any handouts. Being here was an honour and a privilege, not a right. Where is that kind of thinking today, I wonder.

A Son Is A Son Until He Takes A Wife

Tonight, between, "How was your day at school?" and, "pass the potatoes, please" my teenage son announced that he no longer wanted me to care about him.That's right, according to him, I'm over-protective and he would prefer that he lived his life without me getting involved. That meant, to stop worrying about him, to stop asking questions about his life, to stop worrying about what he's eaten, or if he's eaten, to stop calling him honey, or sweetheart, to stop asking if he's okay, or if there's anything he needs, and to stop calling him on his cell phone. He basically wants me to stop being a mother. How can I just stop being a mother?

Needless to say, I was pretty hurt, especially since we've been getting along great lately. It came out of nowhere. I was reminded of all the kids I know that are starving for love and affection from their parents, and then I tried to understand how MY CHILD could complain of being loved too much.

It's hard for me to let him go, I admit, but I'm just not ready to give him up yet, or to stop nurturing and trying to protect him. It's not because I don't want him to grow up and be more independent.It's because I love him, and I guess I try to give him too much of everything that I had too little of. Too little love, too little food, too little attention, too little joy. Yes, I go overboard sometimes with these things, but I never dreamed this would be a bad thing. How can you love someone TOO much?

I've become the enemy all of a sudden, but it's normal, so I'm told. They say he's going through a phase and it'll pass. I sure hope it passes soon because the thought of my child not needing me anymore is a lot for me to handle. 17 years ago, when I had all the time in the world to be his mother, letting go was something that would happen way, WAY in the distant future so I didn't worry about it, and now in the blink of an eye, it's here, and frankly, I don't like it. It's going to take a lot of getting used to.

There's a saying, "A DAUGHTER IS A DAUGHTER ALL OF HER LIFE, BUT A SON IS A SON UNTIL HE TAKES A WIFE". It makes me realize just how precious time is with my son until his life truly becomes his own. Maybe I'm asking to much of a teenager, but I wish he would realize it too.

When My Heart Starts Crying

I have a guardian angel who's always by my side,

and when I'm feeling lonely, in my angel I confide.

The path I've often chosen, lined with sorrow and with stone,

has led me into darkness, but I know I'm not alone.

I share my deepest secrets without judgement and no fears,

and when my heart starts crying, an angel wipes my tears.

My angel sees what I have seen; feels the pain that I have felt,

then quietly reminds me, to play the cards God dealt.

He wouldn't put upon me more weight than I can bear,

and through his loving angels, his strength and light is there.

My guardian angel watches from high in heaven above,

and when my heart stops bleeding, he whispers me his love.

I'm blessed to have an angel that loves and cares for me,

without his strength and guidance, God knows where I would be.

Bluffers Park

It was such a beautiful day yesterday, I thought I would ride down to the bluffs and take a few pictures. This is what I came up with, among others that weren't really worth posting.

It's such a wonderful place to just relax, take in the sites, soak up some sun, and people watch..My most favorite thing to do. :)

An Angel With One Wing

I know an angel with only one wing, with a song in her heart she has yet to sing.

She wanders without aim between earth and sky, searching for her soulmate to help her fly.

She asked the Lord one lonely night, with only one wing Lord, will I ever take flight?

Then the Lord answered in his mysterious way, the wing you are missing will find you one day.

I created my angels with only one wing, each one a queen in search of her king.

When you see him, then you'll know why, he too is without aim between earth and sky.

Until that time, Angel, dont lose sight, your missing wing is searching tonight,

And when he finds you, then you'll see, that your wings joined together will set you free.

It's Finally Here!!!

I had an awesome week and I'm looking forward to an even better weekend here in T.O. The weather man says a high of 22 and I am SO ready for some HOT weather. All I can say is, it's about time!!!I have my camera all fired up, my bike detailed, lol ( just a bicycle) and I'm ready to go!!

I DID volunteer to help out at my son's tae kwon do school this weekend. They've moved to a new location, a better location, but there's still lots to be done for their OFFICIAL grand opening. I chose to paint the bathroom..Uggh! I'm not very good at it. I just hope I don't cave before it gets done. Painting always seems much more fun in my head, but when I actually have to do it, I get bored out of my skull!

I guess I didn't mention that my son is a third degree blackbelt in TKD. I'm So proud of him. He's also assistant instructor as of June. He's not very excited about it. It means more to me than it does him, but I hope one day he realizes just how much he's accomplished in the past 12 years. At this point in his life it's "no big deal". His mind is focused on getting his driving license. He has his G1 (permit) and will taking lessons as soon as we go and sign him up for his birthday, which is on Tuesday. OMG, Tuesday! he's growing up so fast. He's going to be 17 and I still feel 17..Is that normal??..lol.What is age anyway?? I don't look or feel my age, so when people ask me how old I am, I let them guess, and whatever THEY say, that's how old I am..lol.But anyway, I digress.

I love my younger sister to death but I'm going to have to have to ditch her this weekend. Her boyfriend of 12 years died of colon cancer in March and ever since she hasn't left me alone!. Normally I wouldn't mind but, she abandoned me and the rest of my family for all of those 12 years. There were no holidays with her, no phone calls, unless she needed something and then suddenly she's back as if nothing happened. Here's the sad part. She avoided us, mostly my older sister and myself because of jealousy. Can you imagine that?? She couldn't stand him looking at us so in her twisted mind it was just better to stay away completely. That's a long story and I'll write about it some other time. The bottom line is, I'm still bitter about the whole situation. She hasn't even apologized, which makes things worse. Having her call me 10 times a day and wanting to go everywhere with me is getting on my nerves, frankly. Anyway, I plan on a nice, peaceful weekend, sans sister. Sorry sis!

Have a wonderful weekend!! Ciao for now.